Erik Quinn: The Heart of a Family: Alone Time

Friday, August 08, 2008

Alone Time

I had the afternoon to myself today. First, I stopped in to a dark, windowless bar the size of my living room I discovered recently to tune the world out, play video slots, and have a whiskey with a handful of the geriatric set having lunch. The girl tending bar remembered me from the single time I had hidden there one afternoon not long ago, and she made a nice fuss over me, patting my shoulder and making sure I was comfortable. The busy, well-lit places I used to go every couple of weeks have recently closed their doors. Times are tight. Despite the troubled economy, I won $1.10 after playing for about an hour, cashed in, and said my goodbyes. I then escaped out of the heavy, halfway hidden wooden door back out into the humid afternoon and drove to a used bookstore I have never stopped in but have wanted to for four years now. I made myself at home in the stacks and selected a true crime novel about a criminal profiler, a Stephen King book of short stories I never heard of, and some true stories about the American West by Zane Grey. I always wanted to read Zane Grey but never have. With the male half of my personality satisfied, I applied lipstick and declared it official girlie-girl time. I headed next to the ugly, bustling little strip mall to visit the salon and slipped cash to the merciless woman half my size who takes me to the back room and rips off most of my eyebrows. She displayed the muslin strips covered in my former facial hair like trophies and shook her head. Despite her stern facade, I laughed and told her I had missed her terribly.

It was glorious time well spent.

While I did this, I tried not to think about my friend lying inside an MRI machine imaging his lungs, which turned out to contain food and debris he can no longer seem to funnel down the correct tube because of his ALS. He has a resultant infection and needs to be on IV antibiotics, as the normal ones do not seem to have much effect anymore. He seems to be constantly battling lung infections now. I now wait for a phone call to see whether he is hospitalized or not.

Life is so strange. But I'm ready to face it again after just a few hours to myself.

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Blogger Julie said...

It is nice to have alone time. We all need to remember to take some once and a while. I keep meaning to go to a local used books store also. My sister n law has turned me on to and author named Karen Slaughter. Her stuff is pretty gruesome, and if they ever turn them into movies I don't think I will be able to watch. They are very suspenseful and hard to put down.

6:16 PM  
Blogger Every minute counts.... said...

Hoping that things seem a little better after some time alone. I think my only escape any more is reading, something I have stopped doing for the summer but really need to start doing again.

I hope and pray that your friend will get through this latest battle.


8:08 AM  
Anonymous Erik's Auntie Dee~ta said...

So happy to hear that you got some alone time!!!

I have been a little book worm this year... I crawl in bed after all the boys are asleep and drift into another world for awhile! I think I have filled up a book shelf this year already! I wish that we had a used bookstore here in our little town, those type of stores are filled with hidden treasures! Enjoy!!

And I am praying for your dear friend!

Have a wonderful weekend!

Give that nephew of mine a BIG Auntie hug and tell him that I miss him so!


8:42 AM  
Anonymous Erik's cousin Brayden said...


Tell Erik that I miss him and to be a good boy! Oh ya, tell Erik that I have a birthday present all picked out for him! He is going to looooooove it!

Cousin Brayden

8:44 AM  
Blogger Jennifer said...

I'm sorry to hear about your friend with ALS. It's so hard watching those we care about become so ill, and my heart goes out to him.

12:53 PM  
Blogger Michelle said...

First, Let me say the next time your going to play slots and have a drink...CALL ME! My mom and dad's motto is that it's the easiet way to forget about life for a while...something about when those bars are spinning all you really tend to think about is if your going to win. Our nearest casino is a couple hours away which is for me...a good thing. I am jealous of your alone time but realize I haven't had any in a while and I think I just might have to schedule it in! I will keep your friend with ALS in my prayers.

3:48 AM  
Blogger Ava Jewel Leilani said...

Nancy I am so happy you got some alone time and you have your support group. I have to say I really related to your post about Erik looking right thru you and your brestmilk being like acid to him, no one in my family or friends understood what that was like or what that did to me, no one but you, I know you get it and I am so grateful that I have found this blogger place and all of you fab mommas!
(i'll get back to blogging soon)

7:48 AM  
Blogger LZ Blogger said...

Nancy ~ Sometimes a little ALONE time can be just what the doctor ordered even sans prescription!
Sorry to hear about the friend with ALS! ~ jb///

2:00 PM  
Blogger Believer 1964 said...

Disconnect when needed!

I'm sorry to hear about the progression of your friend's ALS diagnosis.

9:56 PM  

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