Stand

I heard this song Tuesday during one of my not-so-proud moments while I was bawling over my steering wheel in a local parking lot this afternoon. It felt like an answer to a prayer just as I felt like giving up.

I have been having a difficult week so far. For one thing, my second Gateway computer hard drive kicked the bucket, and I have been unable to work for two days now. When Erik and I went into the computer store with the Windows CD I was instructed to provide, the electronic buzzer to alert staff that customers were coming through the door made Erik howl loudly in pain just as I began trying to decipher what the salesman was trying to tell me about not being able to load what I brought because I didn't have the correct documentation for copyright purposes. It was pretty much the straw that broke the camel's back. Everybody in the store was staring at us as I frantically tried to explain what was causing my little boy to cry and dug through my things for what he wanted and I knew I didn't have while I half-assedly patted Erik on the head to try to soothe him. Erik didn't even stop to take a breath and kept screaming as people kept entering and leaving the store. When this man sheepishly asked me if I was having a bad day, I almost burst into tears right then. He apologized and managed to get me out of the store as quickly as possible, but I felt once again like we were a freak show, horribly out of place in the world. As I left, I could hear myself muttering quick explanations about Erik's sensitive hearing to the other female customers making comments to me as I passed.

I have people in my life who take care of me and love me, and I am thankful for that, especially on days like today. When I am not strong, there are hands to hold me up.

Because of one of the more intimidating-looking, computer-savvy people who loves me and takes care of me, my new hard drive will be up and running soon. In addition, the computer store offered another apology and informed us I can call in advance before I come in next time. They will gladly disconnect the buzzer from the door before I get there. Now that's what I call royal treatment!

This is to all of you who support me and love me -- and to those of you who don't feel strong this week. There will be tears in a parking lot at some point. Just don't forget to turn on the stereo and listen to the music!



Rascal Flatts - Stand Lyrics

You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame
Alone and helpless
Like you've lost your fight
But you'll be alright

[Chorus:]

Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause it's all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off

Then you stand, Then you stand

Life's like a novel
With the end ripped out
The edge of a canyon
With only one way down
Take what you're given before its gone
Start holding on, keep holding on

[Repeat Chorus]

Everytime you get up
And get back in the race
One more small piece of you
Starts to fall into place

[Repeat Chorus]